From Stockholm To Hollywood – No Retreat No Surrender –
When I lived in Stockholm Sweden where I grew up, I remember going to one particular party with very few guys and equal amounts girls. I was really excited about these girls.
That night I listened and experienced for the first time, “Guns N’ Roses “Appetite For Destruction”…when someone dropped the needle on that specific record, I was floored, everything that was spinning in my head as a young gun around girls that night was gone, it was that record that mattered that night…..
….and forever on.. Hearing that record, I made my choice to be a musician and coincidently became a bass player in my first band, at first I was gonna sing but the bassist was horrible so we swopped and I became the bass player.
…But I liked guitar better so I switched fairly quick to guitar and in my 2nd band I was the guitarist, not very good….. BUT, I was the guitarist..
I kept playing in some garage bands but I had bigger dreams than that. So after my mandatory military service and 2 world trips with a guitar in my hand, and lots of travel experiences that have turned into songs, I relocated to Orange County California and started playing guitar in local bands.
At that time my dream was simply that I wanted to play the same clubs as my heroes like GnR and all the other American bands that I have admired through all years used to play at.
So I worked my fingers to the bone with all my bands, financed bands with everything I had, booked gigs, promoted shows and on and on….
Fast forward years later, many bands, loads of live shows, tours, cheated on our pay on tour, a few records with different bands that never got promoted, and a million musical and band experiences along the way and still feeling that crave to hit the road, play live and connect with the crowd. It’s simply what I live for.
When it comes to being a musician, it’s that muscle memory. You recognize a stretch along the freeway since you have toured it before. It’s that familiar smell of stale beer, cleaning products and piss that hits you when entering a club in the afternoon before the club open.
It’s that feeling of the hangover as you drive blurry to the next town. Hanging out in the laundry matte with acoustic guitar and jamming on some new song ideas while your clothes are drying. It’s that familiar weight of your guitar case in your hand. It’s that camaraderie you feel with tour mates and the melancholy of knowing that you wont see each other again any time soon or maybe never again, and it’s a million other little experiences that define what it mean to be a musician… At least, that’s the way it’s been for me. It’s not the chords your’e playing, or what you’ve sold, but it’s rather knowing those things first hand that makes us musicians. And it’s knowing that you are a small percentage of the population not only have seen, but to have lived behind the curtain that makes this whole crazy thing worth while for us.
But perhaps even more importantly than all of that, it’s YOU the listener, that makes all of it matter.
I look forward to sometimes hard, sometimes ugly, but always worth-while experiences along this musical journey. Here’s to hopping that you are part of that journey,
If you’d like to hear the most recent milestone of that journey, click here to listen to our most recent release, Visualize Believe Conceive
Thank you for being a listener and for making it matter so much..